Her “About Me” section on Facebook:
She has 3 sons and 1 daughter
In them she sees the best..
She doesn’t believe in family who kicks her when she’s down
Nor does she believe in those who contest wills.
Ignorance is Bliss
She realized while she read her mother’s “About Me” section
her own existence had suddenly vanished .. from Facebook.
She realized that her siblings, like their mother, had done the same.
She remembered trying to stay in touch via text messages, sometimes phone calls,
a friend request, a plea, a Christmas card, a birthday present..
She had known in her heart, but to see it, to read it..
Maybe ignorance really is bliss.
Living In A Glass House
Perfection was never enough..graduating high school and finishing college..
dating and saving herself for the “approved” boyfriend..
keeping or saying goodbye to the “approved” relationships.
She sought her “mother’s approval”in every area of her life..
she valued her mother’s approval and she feared her mother’s approval.
Maybe it was fear that kept her from such expectations not expected from others..
or did she just expect such behavior from them:
theft, alcoholism and drugs, promiscuity, going AWOL, jail time,
a child out-of-wedlock..
Is this really the best she sees ..
disowning someone for seeking out their biological father,
believing a stranger .. who has stolen millions .. of someone elses estate,
Yes, people who live in glass houses.. certainly shouldn’t throw stones.
Living with Ignorance:
And to her little sister..
The remaining “1” daughter in her mother’s life..
Her little sister, whom she loves and will always love
Whom she will never judge, or harbor anything but love for
because they will always be sisters.
Her hope that someday she will see the world for herself, with her own eyes..
that she will make her own decisions – wrong or right, and learn from them.
that maybe she will decide one day, she is tired of pleasing, tired of trying, tired of perfecting ..
tired of living with Ignorance in a glass house.